Dating with the girls...

Joyce and me...

Wow.. What a happy day.. Today I went to JJ with Joyce, Sok Yin and Sharon... Joyce told me that Sharon is going to belanja us eat Sakae Sushi... I was so happy... I went to JJ at 11.30 in the morning and I met these girls at Lavender...

We were so happy... And so we started the girls' job - shop! We went to Vincci to see the shoes, especially heels... Joyce asked me to have a try... God... I can't wear high heels... She taught me... I almost fell down and last, I manage to balance myself and walk quite smooth and fluent... Brilliant... We went from shop to shop... Then we walked to Crops... After that, we decided to go for free clothes testing... Haha...

We tried on many clothes... They said I looked pretty in one of the clothes, a dress... So happy... No one ever say me pretty I guess, they just say that I am short... Hey, don't piss of short people... Haha... I was so so happy...

About 1 o'clock, we decided to go to Sakae Sushi for lunch... Sharon and Sok Yin went off to take something, left Joyce and me... Both of us went to Sakae Sushi and on the way, Joyce answered a call using Japanese language... I was thinking, if I am in Convent, I can speak in Japanese language too... Know another language brings opportunities and benifits... Next, we walked to Sakae Sushi, busy ordering food and waiting for Sok Yin and Sharon...

Finally they arrived.. We were eating and joking... So nice.. The only and main thing we did is laugh! Hahaha... We talked about life in school, life at home and friends... Nice... I saw Pang Chao at Sakae Sushi.. He works there... Pity him... After exam still have to work... Life is not easy without money... He told us that there is a promotion, 'eat a red plate, free a red plate'... Haha... That's mean eat two red plates of sushi only need to pay the price of a red plate of sushi... Sharon was happy... She can save money... Haha...

We were eating and talking... Don't know since when we talked about Japanese language and these girls started to talk in Japanese language... Oh my... I could not understand... I continue to drink my green tea, and watched how they communicate in Japanese... And then, they counted one two three in Japanese language and....  Oh my... They wished my happy birthday and gave me a plastic with a box inside it... I was totally speechless... If I have heart attack, they need to send me to hospital I guess... Haha... They asked me to open the box... I opened it and it is a pair of high heels.. I tried it just now and it is the one I like! The feeling is undescribable... It was a suprise... A pure and totally suprise... I knew nothing about it... I thought we just come out to shop and eat Sakae Sushi.. However ended up with bringing a pair of beautiful heels home... The first time... Thanks a lot Joyce, Sok Yin and Sharon...

After that, we continue to shop and shop and shop... Legs cramped but we still continue till 4.30 in the afternoon... Then Joyce went for her choir class... Sharon walked back home because she stays near JJ... Sok Yin fetched me back home... A tired but happy day... I don't know what else to say except thank you!!

I went home and online at night... I chat with wise boy... We talked about Korean Dramas... 'Save Your Last Dance For Me', a korean drama, I watched it before... He told me that if I watched it before, I would the song 'Give My Love'... I don't remember songs' names... I knew the songs, but I don't know the names of the songs... I went to youtube and searched for the song.. When the song is played, it brought me back to memories... There is once I loved the song so so so much... Memories... Only left memories... Sad ones...

Time to start work...

My birthday... Thanks for everyone who wished me... Thank you so much.. A year older, responsible is bigger. I cannot maintain to be a chilish girl anymore... Need to grow... Change...

Exam finished today... Say the truth, I did not feel any happiness in me.. I hate the feeling when something ends... I really hate it... Final year exam of form 4 now is just memory... We need to face something even bigger... The marks...

Holiday is coming, which means that plenty of work are waiting for me... New challenges... First of all, I need to do something to my blog...

Something is wrong somewhere...

Maybe it is because of emotion...
Maybe it is because of examination...
Maybe it is because of complicated feelings...
Maybe it is because of relationship problems...
Maybe... Perhaps...

I getting bald... There's a HOLE on my head!!! My hairs are falling bunch by bunch... God... Imagine that, HOLE man!

I told my mum about that about a month ago... She brought me to the pharmacy.. However the medicine is expensive, so I asked her not to buy, perhaps just normal hair fall.. Now I regret...

Well, I admit, I sleep late and wake up early... That's why my hair is falling...

I need to go Yun Nam... I mean Yun Nam Hair Care Centre...

My English paper...

If I were rich and famous..
I chose that question for my essay.. Gone..

If I were rich and famous, I probably would not donate charity and go shopping or travelling. It is because these points are too common for a good essay.

And I wrote, if I were rich and famous, I would change all my money into coins and throw at my mother-in-law. (Fake one, I won't do it in reality) Then I continued the essay with crap. I am a poor but charming man in the story. I wrote how 'her' long hair blew me away and bla bla bla. Then her mother don't allowed us to be together and bla bla bla. The whole essay is about bla bla bla.

I wrote a special essay that out of title. I am pretty sure she'll give me a special mark too. Why? It is because I gave her a chance to fail me.

'Never mind, it's ok', I try to comfort myself.

Bad Day...

I felt something is wrong somewhere on Monday. And so lucky, I scolded by her the next day. Ask me why. It is because I did an Addmaths question during her lesson. Let the story begins...

Once upon a time, there lived a cute, kind, beautiful, clever, sensitive and brave girl on a far far far away island. Her name is A. She is schooling in a school called The School Of Stones. She is a clever girl, 16 year old, and she is in a good class (bullshit - 'good' class).

There is witch in the school and this witch teaches the students black magic. She is not that professional, she uses her black magic at the wrong time, in the wrong way, for the wrong reason and towards the wrong person. She has a black heart since she is teaching black magic.

On Tuesday, all the students were in the class, waiting impatiently for the arrival of the witch since it was her lesson. The clever girl sat on her place and her friend asked her a question on the magic spell. The clever girl likes the solve questions on magic spells and hence, she was in the question and trying to figure out the solution while the witch entered the class.

The witch asked the students to demostrate one of the black magic techniques. About half the class took part in the demonstration. While they were having their disccusions and preparations on how to perform the black magic stuff, the clever girl not yet finish with the question on the magic spell. She kept thinking of the solution like nobody business. Then, the witch said, 'Those who are not performing write down what is happening in the class!' The clever girl is too clever to ignore her command.

Before the demonstration starts, the witch shouted, 'A! What are you doing?' The clever girl sensed that something big and serious was about to happen. She did not answer the witch however she stopped her work right at that second. The witch was angry and she looked horribly ugly when she is angry. She shouted,'Give me that book!' The clever girl stood up and passed the magic spell exercise book to her. She threw the book on the table. She scolded the girl.

After the demonstration, the witch asked the clever girl to explain what had happened. She said that is was about a black magic teachnique demonstration and bla bla bla. The witch was not satisfied and asked more and more questions. At last, the clever girl can't answer and there's the end. She scolded the girl for not listening to her instruction and did something else during her period. (Come on! She had stop doing the work when the demonstraion was going on! She was paying attention and..) She asked another student to explain. The student explained almost the same thing as the clever girl. However, the student was correct, the clever girl was wrong.

The clever girl was scolded, for the frst time. And the story ends.

The clever girl will never forget, the witch, the cold-blooded animal in her class.

'You're not the only one who believe in religion and do your prayers. Me too. You'll get what ou should get from the God. I'll pray for it.'

New Post

Long time I din't post new post.. Not feel like blogging.. Don't know why..
I don't want anyone to now my feeling right now... Confusing...
Deepavali is coming... Holiday again.. So many holidays nowadays.. Kinda lazy...
I knew what I suppose to do.. Yet I din't do it...
I knew what I not suppose to do.. Yet I done it...
Life seems meaningless to me... So bored...
I would like to appologise to Wee Yan and Yee Hui... I din't take part in Yee Hui's birthday celebration.. So sorry...
Exam is coming... Stress... I don't like it...
Nothing else I can do accept study and watch tv..
Gambateh to everyone of you..
Good luck for exam..

If...

If.....
No problems in this world...
Will I happy?

If.....
No exams in this world...
Will I improve?

If.....
No bad words in this world...
Will I be polite?

If....
No love in this world...
Will I have feelings?

If....
No feelings in this world...
Who am I then?

If....
I am not exist in this world...
Where I'll be?

If.....
No religion in this world....
Where am I after I died?

If.....
I sat my SPM....
Where's my destination next?

If...
I don't know myself....
Who am I?

Struggling.... Don't force me....

Tagged...

1) 大名: 无情远
2) 生日: 05-11-1993
3) 谁传给你的: Weeyan
4) 生日想拿到什么礼物: 巧克力
5) 最近压力大的事: 大考
6) 想做的事: 和他单独在一起
7) 有没有喜欢的人: 有
8) 跟谁出去最幸福+快乐: 他
9) 如果你跟好朋友吵架了, 你会怎么做: 看看是谁的错
10) 最想和别人去那里: 那里都可以
11) 圣诞节想做什么: 到国外庆祝
12) 最想跟谁庆祝圣诞节: 他
13) 最近在做什么: 什么都做
14) 有几个兄弟姐妹: 两个弟弟
15) 最喜欢的一首英文/华文歌: 小风波 （All out of love)
16) 喜欢什么颜色: 灰
17) 上厕所会不会冲水: 当然
18) 喜欢男还是女生: 两者都喜欢
19) 最想大大声说什么: 我可以爱你吗？
20) 半夜敢不敢上厕所: 敢
21) 你现在最恨谁: 家外的老鼠
22) 现在喜欢做什么: 和他传简讯
23) 睡相好不好看: 哪懂？我没看过，都说是睡觉了
24) 现在的时间: 11：38pm
25) 是否厌恨传给你这卷子的人: 不会
26) 体重多少: 没量
27) 今天天气: 阴
28) 如果忙完了你最想做什么: 告诉他
29) 失眠后会怎样: 胡思乱想
30) 你晚上睡觉会不会尿床: 不会
31) 你晚上睡觉会不会流口水: 不会
32) 你有没有吃过夜宵: 当然
33) 近期开心的事：和他传短讯
34) 自由对你来说重要吗: 重要
35) 你觉得在朋友当中谁最性感: 每个都性感，只欠我，我连女人都不如
36) 你觉得你比较笨还是聪明: 笨，应为常常被朋友骂NUB
37) 你比较喜欢爸爸还是妈妈: 谁不生气就喜欢他
38) 你现在最想看到谁: 他
39) 你爱看戏吗: 爱
40) 你敢向你讨厌的人说"我恨你"吗?: 当然

++附加问题++
你打算几时结婚啊: 他向我求婚后
你喜欢你的生活吗: 还好
相信塔罗牌吗: 信
睡觉前所做的事情: 抱着我的臭臭
你的偶像: Yiruma
你喜欢的季节: 冬天
最想去的地方: 英国
最讨厌怎样的性格的人: 没礼貌
你会抽烟吗: 不不不
你会喝酒吗: 不不不不
你常哭吗: 常常
你常笑吗: 常常
想睡到几点: 几点都好
朋友和情人你会选谁: 朋友，若丈夫和朋友，我会选丈夫
机会+命运你会选谁: 机会
你很自恋吗: 不不
你有穿耳洞吗: 有
这问卷多不多: 多
喜欢吃冰吗: 喜欢
现在幸福吗: 还好
最在乎谁: 家人
房间里最重要的东西是什么: 臭臭
没有朋友你会怎么做: 做自己
如果天使给你实现一个愿望,你想要什么: 我不要死
这个问题废吗: 废
喜欢哪个水果: Plum
最怕人家问你什么: 可以帮我吗？
喜欢下雪吗: 喜欢，很喜欢
喜欢下辈子要做什么: 他的情人
希望再被tag吗: 无所谓
你喜欢等人吗: 喜欢

1. 被点到必填，不填代表你不尊重传给你的人和问卷。
2. 请老实回答每一问题。
3. 不能擅自涂改题目。
4. 写完请点10 位小朋友，不可以不点。
5. 完后请通知那10 位小朋友。[ No need to do if you're not free. ]

Trip to Genting...

This is a nice trip... However I don't like it because I LOST MY HANDPHONE ON THE FIRST DAY!! ARGHHHHHHH!!!

Let me tell you everything about it...

First day... I went to school's bus stop at 9.40 in the morning... I wore new shirt... Well.. Not really comfortable with it... After 10 minutes, the bus arrived... I went up the bus to 'book' a strategic place whereas Jesslyn put our luggage at the bottom of the bus... So excited... We sat in the bus about 2 hours... We took pictures, listened to songs and slept... So relax and so happy...

Then, we reached Genting.. Wow.. The moment we went off the bus, the wind blew on our face and body... Nice..

We went to First World Hotel... After we put the luggage in the 'cage', we went to McD for lunch.. We went for window shopping until 2.30 at the afternoon.. And then Weeyan called me to take the room key for check in.... Jesslyn and me went to the lobi, and took our luggage and key... We went up to the hotel and found out that our room was a CORNER ROOM!!! Oh my....

This is not a good sign... And we asked Pn. Lee to change the room for us.. Finally, our room was just beside Chong's room... Luckily...

After that, we walked around until 5 at the evening.. We ate dinner and gathered at the Snow World... This is the moment... I was so so so so so so so so so STUPIAKKKKK to put my handphone in my pocket... I wore the jacket and gloves and entered the Snow World...

I played there.. So happily... We sat in a donut-shaped buoy.. And roll on the slippery ice... After that, Wei Chyi told me that Jesslyn lost her handphone.. I quickly put my hand on my tight... And I found that my handphone was gone too!!!! Say Wen lost hers too... We tried to find for it... Lastly, Jesslyn found hers... Mine gone.. Contact numbers gone.. Priceless and meaningful messages gone... His messages gone... Gone... Gone... Tears...

To be continued....

Happy Day...

Andrew smiled with mouth open! He seldom smile so happily in photos..

Mr. Nik was cutting the cake.. Black forest.. I bought it.. ^^

Haha.. Accidentally took de photo.. Haha...

Haha... William still a small boy...

While he was walking into the class, we sang birthday song for him... He was happy!

Andrew's cake.. Tiramisu... I bought it also!!

Andrew cut the cake but he din't blow the candles because pantang.. The ghost month...

Wow.. Macho.. Andrew was holding the card made by Jess and Alvina!

Eating Tiramisu cake.. Nice!

4 Berlian.. Yo... Happy day..

Bithday boy took picture with me! I still remember the first time he took photo with me was on my 14th year old birthday in school...

Yo... My buddy for 10 years!! Alvina!

Crazy Seow Fong and me!! We are having fun!

Wei Jian... Haha... So funny.. I shot him.. Yeah!

Haha.. The card really looks like Andrew.. Cute!!

Andrew, happy birthday.. Mr. Nik, happy going..

Well, quite a long time din't post something on my blog..

Yesterday, we celebrated Andrew's birthday in school... We organised a party to wish our chemistry teacher, Mr. Nik for happy going too... He is going to leave us...

Last day of school, we had celebration... Hmm.. According to Prof. Andrew, not actually a suprise... He knew it before that.. I hope he is happy.. Andrew, happy birthday... Mr. Nik, don't you ever forget us! We'll miss you... Take good care..

I fought with Wee Yan again... One thing I am very sure is he changed... I don't like the new him... I really don't like it... No comment on him.. Useless and meaningless to say to him if he don't have a heart to listen...

Next week I'll be going to Genting... However my homework not yet complete.. What a shame... I have to complete everything before I go to genting...

Mr.G had started his trial exam... I hate this feeling.. He is going to sit fot SPM in two months time... And after that, it's time to leave... I don't want him to leave me alone.. Stay with me... I've been thinking of him day and night... If he leaves me, perhaps he'll forget me...

Anyway, this is not a time to say this.. I wish him all the best in SPM... Good luck... I'll pray for you... Do the best... For me...

Happy... Joy...

Today I went to Kolej Legenda, Mankin, Negeri Sembilan for a trip...
We went to school like usual..
I went there with my friends.. Alvina, Jesslyn, Aisan, Maye and Wei Chyi...
I sat with Alvina.. Next to me was Yu Sheng and his friend...
Throughout the trip, it was nice with the presence of camera...
Mr. Rymand, one of the manager there gave us a speech...
He told us a lot about SPM and the stuff related with studies..
Very interesting...
And next, we visit the whole campus... So nice...
Along the trip, I was busy taking photos...
Although just photos, I am glad with it...
Photos keep memories!!
I am happy!!

The Toilet...

Hahahaha...

Horrible day...

I am sick.. Coughing and having fever...
I was feeling uncomfortable and sleepy at school... My whole body just so warm..
Coughing non-stop... My throat is so itchy... I feel like scratching it by putting my fingers in...
I slept for the whole day in the school.. I should't go to school...
At the afternoon, I went to tuition...
Coughing non-stop too...
Later, I went to MJ for chemistry tuition... The cough is going worse...
At 6 in the evening, Mr. Alan, my chemistry teacher asked me to go home...
I so scared... Seems like really attacked by H1N1...
My mom came and fetched me to the clinic, Comfort Clinic, to meet the doctor...
He gave my some medicine... Not some, but many.. God...
Hope that I will get well soon...

Dedicated For You...

走

曲：走火入魔

词：吴青远

为什么 你和我 开口没话说

还是我 朋友多 让你难开口

日子 已过 为什么 你避开我

她不错 钱又多 紧紧被你捉

我又矮 智商弱 没一丝温柔

是你 让我 和寂寞一起生活

下定决心 沉默

你一次又 一次 伤害我

因为她 忽略我

深爱她 但抛弃我

忘了我们的承诺

一天一年 水不能容纳油

一滴一点 泪不停往下流

你从不了解我感受

无言相对走到了尽头

你和我就像水和油

我走

好久不见。。。

很久没以华文写部落格了。。。

日子过得真快，高一的生活苦苦地挨过了半年， 有甜也有苦，有酸也有辣。在这半年里，我改变了很多， 但我不晓得是好或是坏的改变。。我自己察觉不到，只有我身边的朋友感受得到。

我渐渐发觉，学业不等于一切，它只是可以保住学生面子的一个面具，它只是可以保证你进入大学的一道桥， 他只是可以保证你进入社会后有一个地位。

最重要的是，智慧，品德和健康。。智慧可以带领我们到世界各地的每一个角落，有智慧的人，是富有的；品德可以让我们得到别人的尊重和崇拜，有品德的人，是高尚的；健康可以给我们一切的一切，有健康的人，是最幸福的人。

长大了。。责任重了。。考验来了。。这感觉很不舒服。。爸爸常常说，遇到问题时，要记得接受它，面对它，处理它，放下它。没错，这就是问题的解决法。。

学校里的情侣的人数逐渐增加。。在一起是真的真心爱彼此吗？还是贪玩一时？在一起是因为一时的心动，或是什么？牵手，亲吻，拥抱， 就是爱情？因为错误的观念，所以搞出人命，把自己最贵重的东西牺牲了，值得吗？真是的，我学校就有个死胎！无辜的是那个胎儿！好恐怖。。

下个月我会和学校旅行团去云顶。。希望一路顺风。。

My New Room...

Today, is a Sunday... I slept at 6 o'clock in the morning... Guess what I did... I watched the Hong Kong drama, 'Heart of Greed'... I really love the movie... A few months ago, Wee yan told me that this movie is fantastic, but I just ignored him, I felt that I can never have the time for Hong Kong drama.. However, my aunt bought me the drama dvd... And I watched everything last night... So touching... High quality drama...

Today morning, I woke up at 10 something... My parents and I work together and help my bed room to get a new image... I threw the old bed, and using the new bed... I washed the toilet... I want to change the cupboard, but need some time, because the worker will send it maybe next week...

Later on, we had our lunch at Domino's...

My 6th sense told me that something is going wrong with me... I became more lazy nowadays... I don't feel like doing homework... Just online and sleep.... THIS IS A HUGE PROBLEM!!!

I don't really know how to face it... I pray every morning and hope that god will give me the strength to face it... I really do...

I am onlining now... Andrew Lim said that the new type of virus, 'LAZY VIRUS' had attacked me... He said, don't panic, if din't do homework, just open my book and use my hand to do it, that's it... Ya, it's easy, qunyuan can do it...

My first time... So happy!!

Today, is a Saturday... I went out with my friends... We went to Botanic Resort Club for swimming... Wow... It was undecribeable!!!

I wore the swimming suit I bought yesterday at JJ... It is black and grey in colour... It had been a long time I din't wear swimming suit.. And my previous swimming suit was a children swimming suit, with a skirt... So childish... Therefore I bought one in JJ... So nice... I love it!

Stephanie and I went there at 5 in the evening.. William and Wee Yan was wating for us at the lobby... Elaine, her sister, Kaili and Wei Jie already swimming in the pool...

I changed my entire with Steph and went to the pool with a towel... I borrowed Steph's goggle and started to swim...

Wow... There is two big pools... One pool is 1.3 meter and another one is an olympic size pool... The olympic pool is from 1.2 meter to 2 meter... So deep... I dare not go there so I went to the 1.3 meter pool.. William, Elaine and Wee Yan taught me how to change the breathe while swimming.. And as a result, I knew how to swim frog style and free style... But I need practise to swim faster... Haha..

After that, Elaine, her sister and Kaili brought me to the sauna, spa and steam bath... I have never ever enter these places before... This was my first time!! I enjoyed it!! So nice... I was just relaxing there... Really cool...

After that, Elaine's mom fetched me back... I really enjoyed myself... I wish to go there every Saturday...

Useless... I am... Useless...

I thought I did very well in my moral paper... However when I got the result, I knew that I was lying myself... Unbelievable I got 46 marks for moral... It is terrible... I know... When I got that result, everyone beside me was like, qunyuan got 46 for moral! They were whispering... It hurts me... They are my 'friends'... Unbelievable...

46.. A good number to buy toto... But it is cruel to tell the number to my mum that I got that number in my test... I couldn't... It sucks... Really painful...

The conclusion is, I am useless...

Am I Slowing Down?

I got my account result on last Friday... Got poor marks... Don't even get an A1... Just an A2... Heart broken into two pieces.. Each of them sink into each foot... It was horibly painful... I've been asking myself, qunyuan, are you slowing down? Deep inside my heart, I know the answer is a 'yes'...

I can't change anything, it already became history... Useless to feel sad, useless to cry, useless... My mum told me, there is always a second chance.. And this time, I will not let myself to slow down or to get a A2 or B3... My target is A1.. A1 is my target... Qunyuan, work hard..

Holiday had passed... So fast... Time always pass very quickly... Just that we never use it propery...

A new semester, a new begining... All the best to all of you!!

Appreciate...

In real life, many things, stuff, incidents, phenomenas are very cruel and unbelievable..

We must learn to appreciate...

Appreciate god that we are alive...

Appreciate parent that brought us to this world...

Appreciate teachers that transfer the knowledge to everyone...

Appreciate real and true friends who will really be with us when troubles knock on our doors...

Friends... Define friends... Friends... Happy with them, lonely without them... Friends' loyalty makes us feel glad, friends' betrayal makes us suffer for a long period..

Friends will help us when we are in trouble right?

Friends will understand us right?

Friends will share the happiness together with us right?

That's why... Appreciate friends.. If friends make you feel sad, learn from them, don't be like them... Treat friends around just like how we want them to treat us...

True friends... Where are you guys?

Mercedes Car...

Yesterday... Was a long long day...

4th of June is my dad's birthday.. And this year, I followed MJ's trip to Pekan, Pahang on my dad's birthday... Early in the morning, I woke up at 5.15 am.. My dad fetched me to the MJ office at Jalan Meru at about 5.55 in the morning... It was very early in the morning and somehow I was sleepy... Along the way, I was hoping that I am not late... Praying and praying not to be late... And finally, I was on time.. I was there at 6.15 am sharp... Mr. Alan was standing there... Mr. Alvin said hi to me.. I waved at Sing Keat... And I stood there, alone, waiting for the arrival of the bus.... Mr. Ho arrived and took my pictures.. I felt like punching him... Haha...

Finally, the bus arrived... We went into the bus... I sat on the third place on the left.. I sat beside the window... Amazed by the darkness of the night... And suprisingly, Mr. Alvin sat beside me... Wow... My feeling was undecribeable... Yu Sheng sat behind me... Kah Ling and the gang sat beside Yu Sheng... Batu Unjur's form 5 went there... I was the only form 4... Kinda lonely..

To go to Pekan, Pahang took around 4 hours... It was a long long journey... Watching the scenery from the window was so boring.. The bus was very quiet.. Everyone was sleeping... And I took part in sleeping too... ^^ On the way to Pekan Pahang, Mr. Alvin played an animation movie on fighting... I don't like to watch animationg fighting movies... Because.... I am a girl...

Finally, we arrived at the assembly plant of Mercedes Benz car at Pekan, Pahang... Wow... Fantastic!! It was awsome!! The assembly plant is huge... I saw some Mercedes car... Chosing my favourite colour... Haha... We went to the office of the assembly plant of Mercedes car... And finally a Jerman man if I am not mistaken, gave a short breifing session... I din't pay any attention on that, I was busy taking pictures... Haha..

Next, we were divided into 3 small groups... Cameras are not allowed... Quite boring without camera... Mr. Alvin and a worker there is my group's leader... We were brought to the body shop, watching how the cars being assembled... Yu Sheng was with me throughout the process of visiting the assembly plant... He was asking me a question, 'When can we have lunch?' Hahaha... So funny...

It was very amazing to see the high technology machines to produce a car... The machines are great, imported from Jerman... Most of the workers there are Malay men... I saw some girls working there too... Only one or two chinese... No indians I guess... Throughout the assembly plant visit, I knew how a car being produced... And I would buy one if I could in the future... Cars, no doubt are very important for everyone of us, agree? After that, we return to the office.. Waiting for other groups to return... I was hungry at that time.. Mr. Alan's group was the last group that returned to the office... I am sure he had plenty of questions to ask... Haha...

After that, we had lunch... Hmmm... The food were ok... Then, the Jerman guy gave a short briefing again.. The last one... And finally, we went back to the bus... Although just a few hours visit, I enjoyed myself!! Happy and joy!!

Next station is the place where songket are made... It was Tun Abdul Razak's birth place too... We were there watching the wood-made machines, see how the songket are produced... Taking pictures... Very fun... I used Mr. Ho's camera to take some pictures too... The camera is very heavy... However the quality of photos is good... I got the information that Pahang will be flooded every year... The water is almost 6 feets high.. Higher than me.. I am short... Mr. Alvin took my picture to compare the height of the water during flood...

After that, everything ended and we went back to the bus... On the way going back to Klang, some of them were eating on the bus, some of them continue their fighting movie, some of them chat, and I decided to sleep... Aiyo, so embarassing... I slept until Mr. Alvin's shoulder... Oh god... I was terrible and horrible.. So embarassing... I din't realise it until he told me after the toilet break... God... After that, we watch Jet Li and Jackie Chan's movie... Some parts were funny, for example Jackie Chan said 'Two tigers cannot live in the same mountain, two teachers cannnot teach the same student'.. Haha... Haha.. What statement is that? Haha...

After that movie, we watch 'War', a movie by Jet Li too... This movie is a 18 and above movie.. Not actually suitable for small kids like me... ^^ I watched until half way and I slept... When I awake, I continue watching it until it ended... Hmmm... Really not suitable for me...

Finally reached Klang... Everyone went home... I don't like the feeling of seperating and wishing each other goodbye...

I enjoyed myself... However, so embarassing for sleeping on a teacher's shoulder...

Exams...

My school had started the mid-year examination this Wednesday... This examination is too close to the second monthly test... So, I have no idea what to do with it... It was too soon... I was busy finding all kinds of excuses to not study... What a lazy bug I am... Haha...

Today I had my English test... Wow.. Fantastic.. I wrote very well, I guess... I am very glad I did that... I just hope that I will get good result for English...

Hmmm... Next week's journey even longer and tougher... Especially history... I have no idea how to study this subject... Don't have interest in it... So, just let it be...

In this week, many things happened... Unhappy ones... I faced it strongly... I knew I can do it... And yes, I did!

By the way, good luck in exams, for everyone...

Screaming moment...

So many things happened today... Not good things... But the other way round...

As you know, screaming is one of my 'characteristic'... I will scream anywhere, anytime, any moment and even any place...

Today after EST period, I went out from the library, carrying my books and pencil case, walking towards my bag... I put everything in my bag, take my bag and prepare to go down the stairs in front of the office... While I was walking towards the stairs, one of the boys, I think probably is Nevdeep or Aidil, put one of his leg in front of mine... I almost feel down... My bag is very heavy, and I was not balanced and almost feel down.... What else I can do? I was so scared and I SCREAMED....

At that moment, many teachers were standing in front of me, holding their bag, preparing to walk down the stairs too... After I screamed, they looked at me with an angry face, wondering who was the terrible girl screaming so loud and sharp... And I saw a hand coming out from the office, calling the boys... Then, my friend told me that, while he is coming down, one of the teachers said that she hates the person who scream like that... I was so sorry, it was me... Ya, it's me... And later, I found out that the hand coming out from the office was Pn Nirmala... She was asking who was shouting... I was so sorry... Me again... God..

After that, I went for my english tuition... When going back time, I walked out of the house, wore my shoes and standing there.. Beside me was a dog in the cage, barking loudly, fiercely and non-stop... I was thinking of the dog... Imagining that the dog jumps out.... I have no idea why I was imagining the dog.. And when I imagine the dog, I heard someone calling me, and I thought the dog jumps on to me... At this moment, I was so scared and Wai Lock hit me with his file... I got a shock and I SCREAMED....

Everyone laugh at me... I was so sorry... I think I scared almost everyone, my tuition teacher and his mother...

I feel that screaming is a bad habit... I want to change it... I really do... However, sometimes we just can't control ourself not to scream... Help me... Qunyuan, you are the screaming queen of Batu Unjur!

New post...

It had been a long long time I din't 'blog'.... One month I guess... Everything is because of 'busy'.... I was busy with exams, studies, everything and almost anything... Well, it is just a unreasonable reason... Between this month, many things happened... Unhappy things, funny stuff, all kind of troubles, friendship problems..... What am I gonna say? This is life!

Last Saturday, I went for addmaths competition and compete for 300 ringgit cash... The result will be out on this Thursday... I just hope that I will make it... 300 for you guys perhaps is a small amount, but for me, I can do a lot of things with 300 ringgit...

Today, wow... Many things suprised me... And the most surprise is, I was the last person who knew it... Haha... Sounds like I am an outdate shorty... Haha... Well, there are a lot of new couples today... Boon Chien is with Aaron, Yee Ching is with Pang Chao, May Fen is with Zai Kai, Wee Yan is with Sook Shin... And many other pairs.... Hope that they will happy and their relationship will last as long as possible... At this moment, I just feel like running away from them.... Well, I don't like to be people's 'light bulb'...

One more thing... My mid term exam is going to start on the 13th off May... I just knew it this morning... And just got a heart attack... I prepared for nothing... How am I gonna sit for the exam? Started to panic... Tears all around... I know that I have to be strong... I will...

Let's talk about SPBT... Nowadays, all the SPBT prefects are not united anymore... Lay Chong is not with us... This really makes me very sad... My 6th sense told me that SPBT is going to split.... I knew that this is a cruel statement... However, human beings change... Everytime when Pn. Ong asks me about us, I just answer with a smile... The smile is not natural... I carft it on my face... I dare not tell Pn. Ong what is actually going on... As I said, this is a cruel statement...

Exam is coming... Preparing for it... So guys, take care.... See you during holidays...

April Fool... And... Zai Kai, Happy Birthday!!

Well, for a long time I din't create a new post... And now, it is April... Time is passing so fast.... Exstremely fast... And today is April Fool... Hahaha.... During BI period, we were asked to go to the hall to take photograph.... I've been thinking, this is the second last year.... One more year to go, and we are going to leave the school... I will be going to miss the school, everyone and him...

How about you guys? Share your opinion with me, about what you feel....

Yesterday morning, when I entered my dad's car, oh god!! There was a terrible ammonia smell.... It was like someone pee in my dad's car... Oh my.... My dad said, something might died in the car... I was thinking, what? 'Something' died? In the car? Mouse? Snake? I was panic, and when I reached school, I just jumped out from the car as fast as possible!

In the afternoon, I went for my biology class... After the class ended, I asked the teacher about the ammonia smell in my dad's car.... His answer shocked me out! He said, dead animals or even human beings will produce ammonia smell.... My dad is a faithful buddist, he is a vegetarian, it is impossible to find some 'dead creature' in his car.........

After tuition, my mom fetched me home... She told me that a crab died in dad's car.... Wow, sound fantastic right? Where the hell the crab came from? Well, we went back to Kedah last week and came back on this Sunday... My grandpa caught some crabs and we took it back by my dad's car... One tiny little crab escaped and found dead in the bonnet of the car....

Finally, it was just a CRAB....

Holidays...

School holiday again... As usual, there are a lot of homeworks... I have 3 Powerpoint Presentation need to be done during the holiday... So tired...

Yesterday, our BM teacher, Pn. Aminah came in to our class... She decided to give us some Tatabahasa exercises.... Suddenly, someone said, "Cikgu, tak mau latihan, kita buat kuiz!" With that, Pn. Aminah was so angry... She scolded us... She has high expectations on us, however, say the truth, we made her very disappointed... Especially some talkative and ego students in our class....

Let's discuss about 4 Berlian students' attitude... First of all, let's talk about me... I admit that I am not a very good student... Like other students, sometimes I will forget to do my homework, forget to hand in my homework, absent for no reason, talk something else when teacher is teaching... I am not that good... When Pn. Aminah was scolding us, I felt so ashamed for myself... How about you then?

There are many different types of human being in 4 Berlian... Some of them thought that they are very good in academics, do not need to concentrate during the lesson... Some of them thought that they are very rich, go for tuitions and settle everything... Some of them very talkative, because of their mouths, we get scolded almost everyday... Some of them very childish, talk nonsence all the time... Is that the attitude that we should have? Think about it deeply...

I don't want to let people feel disappointed with me anymore... I want to change... I hope all the 4 Berlian students will change their attitude too... Let 4 Berlian shines... Please...

Watchmen...

Yesterday was a terrible day... In the evening, I went to Joyce's church with Alvina, Chong, Kristine, Stephanie, Weeyan and Wan Xiang... After that, we decided to go to Jusco to watch movie... Everyone went to Jusco except Steph...

Finally, we decided to watch 'Watchmen', the movie for 18 and above.... Wan Xiang and Chong went to the counter to buy tickets... However, they failed to get the tickets... Then, we saw Wee Juan and his aunt... Luckily, his aunt was so kind and help us to buy the movie tickets...

After we had our dinner, we went to the cinema and wanted to go in... I was so scared that the man who check the tickets will not allow me to enter the cinema because I am so short and look so unmature...

Then, I hold Weeyan's hands and act like a couple to enter the cinema... I hold his hands so tightly... So scared... Well, we finally got into the cinema... We watched the movie... God.. This movie is really not suitable for the 18 and below... It has a lot of sex actions... After the movie, I had a nightmare... God...

On Friday, I went to his blog... I realised that he has a lover... And I realised that I should give up... Painful... I told Aaron... He scolded me... He said that I am stupid... Yeah, I admit it... I am so stupid to love the wrong person...

Try harder... Take advises...

On Monday, I reached school at 6.40 in the morning... I saw Wee Juan and the gang... Then, we decided to test our water rocket at the Tapak Perhimpunan... We set the launcher beside the hall... Later, we began to launch the water rocket... My rocket is the first to be launched... Ming Hui helped me to pump, and I am the one who hold the rocket... I hold it so tightly... Try not to let it go... Finally, I can't stand the pressure and I let my hands off the bottle... Wow, it fly so high.. The sky is still very dark when we lauched the rocket... The rocket fly towards the sky and just disappear... Oh god!! I spent so much time to make the rocket, and it just disappear... Haiyo... Finally, I end up nothing... Haix.. Never mind, it is a good try...

Exam week just passed... I got a B for English, Science and Technology (EST)... I got 80% for Biology... I love biology... I have a high expectation on this subject... However, I just got 80%... It is so unstable, and I am not satisfied at all with it... Have to try harder next time... Others subjects seems to be no problem... This is the first Ujian Prestasi, hope that I will do better next time...

Today, I went to tuition... My teacher told me that we can drop all the subjects except Bahasa Melayu, English, Sejarah, Pendidikan Moral and Modern Mathematics.... He advised me to drop EST because to get an A1 in EST is quite impossible... On the other hand, he advised me to take accounts and general science... For accounts, if we got an A1 or A2, we may get an extra certificate, which is the LCCI (Level 1)... This cert is very useful in the future... With this cert, we may proceed to a higher level and we may get higher salary if we apply for job... I am taking accounts... So, I would like to encourage you guys to take accounts starting from now.. For general science, if we are science stream students, taking general science may help us to get an A1 easily.... It is just like a free A1, what are we waiting for? Grab it or we may lose it... My teacher also say that the Ministry of Education did not announce that we compulsary must take all the subjects... We can drop whatever we want except the 5 teras subjects....

As a science stream student, my advise is don't drop Biology, Chemistry and Physics... If you drop one of them, what is the point you enter science stream class? Think about it...

I made it!

Two tough weeks finally gone.... I am so tired and sick... Coughing non-stop... Really tough... Well, today, I so brave, I told my scout teacher that I don't want to be the secretory of the scout society... I've been thinking for a long time, did I do the right thing? Pity the scout society.... Before that, pity me first... Why? Long story...

Since Form 1, I am a scout... I participated a lot of activities... You guys see right? However, so funny, when I fill the borang for Pencalonan Pelajar Cemerlang, I check all my certificates, I never got a cert for scout... Hahahaha... Hahaha... So funny... Haha... I am so stupid right? Hahaha...

Exam week just over... I am so glad that I passed through it... However, papers are not distributed yet... Throughout the exam, I am so happy because I share my knowledge with my friends... They will ask me whenever they don't understand... If I know the solution, I will teach them... If I don't know the solution, I will find out together with them...

I did my water rocket... Well, I hope the parachute can open on next Monday... Or else, I will fell so bad..

Heavy...

I cried on Friday... Don't know why..... Tears were keep dripping from my eyes.... I hate myself for crying... Qunyuan should'nt cry... I hate you...

Exam is so near... I have no feeling at all... I want to study, but it is so hard to concentrate...

Pn. Alijah asked us to fill in the borang about the Pencalonan Pelajar Cemerlang PMR.... I've been thinking, am I one of them?

Can I do it? I am a girl...

The day before yesterday... My chemistry teacher asked us to do parachute.... I was thinking, parachute? Just like what the form 4 students did last year? If the form 4 last year can do it, I think I can also do it... After my chinese class, I asked one of the 5 Berlian students... Then at night, he told me how to do it through MSN.. I know how to do it, but I want to improvise it... However, I don't know the way to do it...

Yesterday... My physics teacher asked us to do water rocket... I was thinking, water rocket? A rocket? Just like what the form 5 did one year before last year? If they can do it, I think I also can do it.... However, how to build a rocket? I know nothing about rocket... Have to start from zero... Can I do it? Haiyo... Why this year so many things to do? I hate it!!

Happy Valentine's Day...

Tomorrow is the day waiting by everyone in the world because tomorrow is Valentine's Day! Let's define Valentine's Day... Valentine's Day is a day which celebrate by every human being who is in love... Correct?

Well, I would like to wish everyone Happy Valentine's Day!! Although we are still single, or some of us even got a boyfriend or a girlfriend, we definately can celebrate Valentine's Day.... I've been asking for my Valentine's present from almost all the boys that I know... Hahaha... Who ask me to have a thick epidermal tissue on my face? Some of my friends got a shock when I asked Valentine's present from them.... Hahaha...

I am still waiting the present from 'him' deep inside my heart... I know I will get nothing but just dissapointment, however, I want him to understand that I am still waiting...

As a conclusion, be happy always and Happy Valentine's Day!!

I am unhappy... Tears everywhere...

Yesterday, Naim, Fairuz and Hadzim were in our school for the last day... They are going to the Sekolah Asrama Penuh next week.... I am so sad...

Fairuz is my friend since we were form 1... No doubt she is a very very good friend of mine... She always help me whenever I was in trouble... She will always listen to me whenever I had problems... She will share her opinions and comments with me whenever she could... She will tell me a lot of things about her religion whenever I asked her... She will help me detect my errors whenever I was careless.... She is a soft hearted and sweet girl... Now, she will be leaving us to go to a better school... I wish she could be strong and independent... I believe that she can do it... Fairuz, be strong and don't forget me....

Hadzim and Naim... Both of them are so handsome... The only difference between them is, Hadzim is shorter than Naim... They are good students... I am not very close with them, however I know they are good human being... Haha... I wish the best for you guys... Take care and never forget 'GOH'!!

Today is the first koko meeting... We had our mesyuarat agong today... So sad to say that I am the secretory for all the clubs I am in...Am I look like secretory? Only secretory? So many jobs waiting for me to do.... It is a tough job... I have some questions for you guys... What a secretory should do? Preparing for all the documents during meetings? Set up the club notice board? Take attendence? Do reports? Print name lists? Be the comander also? I am so tired... Someone help me please....

Be strong qunyuan...

牛年... Mooo....

终于，等到了牛年的到来。。。我无法不承认，我已经十六岁了。。。回想起匆匆溜过的岁月，我发现我长大了。。 思想，态度，待人处事和性格变得成熟了。。时间，真是不留情。。。难熬的日子很快就过去了，开心的时刻也像闪电般快地溜掉了。。。剩下的是什么？ 只是回忆。。。

上个星期，我回到外婆家去过年。。。都说是过年嘛，当然很开心。。。今年破纪录，我的压岁钱（红包钱）共有一千十五令吉。。。 很开心，太开心了。。。

前天，我和朋友聚一聚，到朋友的家玩游戏，谈谈天。。。不知何时开始，谈到了我们之间的‘人际关系’。。。哇，真是天下大乱！！我一直都相信，有人存在的地方，必定会有冲突，争执的存在。。换句话说，人和冲突或争执是离不开彼此的。。。我们之间，和朋友之间，发生了些冲突。。。我是个蛮呆的人。。。我不是很会处理我与别人的人际关系，不，简直就是不会。。。也许是这样，导致了争执的发生。。。无话可说，无言相对，可能是最好的解决方法。。。就因为这样，我让学业把我自己压得喘不过气，让我不需理会，不需处理，不需应付这类的人与人的问题。。。

牛年里，我想实现我的梦想；牛年里，我想与朋友有更进一步的发展；牛年里，我想减少一家人的争吵；牛年里，我想过得健康；牛年里，我希望我身边的每一个人过得开心。。。

牛年快乐！

新学年已进行了将近一个月。。。如今，华人农历新年新年即将来临。。。

每年，同一个日子，都过着同样的节日。。。然而，今年的新年气氛很淡，也许是因为经济危机的到来吧。。大家都忙着省，省，省。。。 但我的观察告诉我，像我们这类的青年都忙着把钱花，花，花。。。

新的一年，当然有新的目标，有新的愿望，有新的梦想，有新的朋友，有新的衣服。。。大致上新年什么都新。。。对我而言，新不新并不重要，最重要的是红包里的钞票有几张！哈哈，没错吧？

新年期间，我会回家乡。。。原本我和朋友约好新年期间到每个人的家去拜访，但因为时间的关系，我无法参入。。。好难过哦。。。

昨日，我和朋友到福建会馆参加挥春比赛。。。我连书法的底都没有，凭什么得奖呢？就这样，输了。。虽然没赢，我一点也不觉得失望。。。回想起初中一时，老师派我去参加县的比赛，但很不幸的，输了。。那一次是我第一次代表学校到校外比赛，那一次的输，让我连续失眠几个星期呢。。。现在的我终于体会‘不气馁’的意思。。

新牛年要来咯！！牛，象征着坚持且永不放弃的精神。。。我很希望我可以在这一年里有着像牛一样的精神。。。毕竟高中一的日子不好过。。新学年才刚刚踏入第一个月，我就生病了。。。真痛苦。。。青远，要加油。。

总而言之，我再次恭祝大家牛年快乐！牛转乾坤！万事如意！心想事成！

Happy Chinese New Year....

Chinese New Year is coming soon... I will be going back to my hometown at Kedah, just like what I had done for the past 15 years...

I would like to wish all of you Happy Chinese New Year!!! Be happy always, and miss me a lot!!!

Life in 4 Berlian...

Again, I am in Berlian class... Nothing special, just as noisy as usual... Well, school has just started for about a month and I am so tired... Let's talk about the teachers in my school...

Honestly, some of the teachers that teaching my class this year are no good... I don't want to mention who are them, they should know themselves... Some teachers are good, however they can't teach! They always run out of the topic... So, what's the point we study in school? Just to listen to the teachers telling us craps? God... Because of the teachers in school, we have to spend our money to attend extra tuition classes...

Now, we talk about friends arround us... Some friends are really good friends of mine... However, some of them are not at all.... Some friends care for you every single second no matter you are in trouble or have any problem... In the other hand, some friends are just trying to get something from you or always want to compete with you... I really hate this kind of friends! Besides that, some of them have really bad attitude which I think they should change... Some of my teachers in school always tell me that friends are important in life, never choose the wrong friends because at last we are the one who suffer.... I agree with this statement... Sometimes, very sad to have those 'friends'.... They are fake!!!

Now, my family's turn... I fighted with my mom... She was not willing to listen to my explanation, this is what makes me angry... It was a long story and I don't think that I am going to write that in this article....

About Mr. G... I thought I've forgot him... But now.. I am having "love maniac"!! God....

Different...

I am now Form 4... I just realised that I am 16 this year this morning... Everthing changed this year.... It is so different... I will be used to it one day... However I don't know when....

I am in 4 Berlian... My classmates are still the same, just that different teachers enter our class every single day... Today, during recess time, I saw a tall boy and a beautiful girl... Chong and Alvina told me that they are students from Australia... It is good to have visitors to come to our school especially those who from other country.... Miss Wong entered our class today... She is our mathematics teacher.... She told us that tommorow the two Australian students will be our class' guests... Chong is very excited... I know she is.... We will find out what she will do tomorrow... Haha.... She will chop me into pieces when she read this article...

The two Austrialian students are so tall... Sometimes, I feel sad because I am so short... Can I tall anymore? This question keeps appearing in my mind.... I am as tall as my mom, but my dad is much more higher... I really hope that I can be taller... Sometimes, there is something that we can't control... Although we tried so hard, sacrificed so much, we will end up nothing... Why? Because it is something that we cannot control... That't it!

I am short for the pass 10 years.... I want to be tall....

PMR results... You deserve for it?

Today early in the morning, I woke up and my mum fetched me to school... When I was walking into the school, my heart beated faster and faster.... The feeling of nervous is all around my body... Felt like going to register in the heaven....

I reached the school and I saw Pameny.. I talked with her... Later at 10 in the morning, the form teachers of every class came down to the Dewan Terbuka and started to distribute the PMR results... I dare not to get the result... So scary... Sometimes, we don't know is better than we know... At last, I walked towards to my class form teacher and get my result... Who the hell knows what will happen next second when she show my result? Anything can occurs!! The feeling of scared and nervous is with me all the time... Finally, she showed my result... Straight As!! Wow! I screamed there... So excited... Very happy...

When I came back home, I started to think a lot of things again... Andrew sent me a message about chapter 2 of the book of life... Actually he is correct... PMR, or even exams are only a small matter in our life... In the book of life, there should be thousands of chapters inside it... We just went through the 2nd chapter.. It is actually nothing.... The process is much more important than the final result....

In my school, there are about 23 or 25 students got straight As... I am happy to hear that... However, for the students who got straight As in their PMR really deserve for it? Some yes, but some no... Some of them who had worked very hard for it din't get excellent result, in the other hand, some of them who did nothing for their PMR passed with flying colours.... Although some of them passed with flying colours, straight As, but their attitude is like shit! This kind of people deserve to get excellent result?

As I said, process is much more important than the final result... Be a good person in the process, and you deserve for the final result... Its a bit hard to do it, but try to.... This is my experience....

Restart... Reborn... So near...

Today is the 28th of December... Time is passing very fast... This week is the last week of the long and bored holidays... Well, I am quite satisfied with my holidays because I used it well, I guess.... Spending time revise my work, spending time blogging and chating through internet, spending time for piano, spending time dreaming, spending time watch all kinds of televisyen shows... Wow, I did everything in this holiday.... And now... New year is coming...

New year... Everything starts again... We have to start counting from 1 to 365 days again... I've been thinking a lot this few days... The first thing I think about is my tuition teacher... Let me tell you stories....

Before the class starts..

Mr. Choo : (Sitting on a chair with the legs crossing and marking the exam papers...)

Students : (Sitting on the chair very quite too, while waiting for the Popek Queen...)

Mr. Choo : Nothing to do ar? You can talk! Talk la!

The Popek Queen is here....

Mr. Choo : Nothing to do ar? Count hair la! 1, 2, 3...

Mr. Choo : Goh! Nothing to do ar? Count hair!

The Popek Queen starts to popek....

Goh : Finish counting la!

Mr. Choo : Finish counting?

Mr. Choo : Goh, put your fingers in Irene's nose! Irene, put your fingers in Goh's nose!

Goh : Haha.. Teacher! Come here! I put my fingers in your nose, want ar?

Mr. Choo : (Laughing...)

Goh : Waaah... Teacher, you handphone very 'new' leh!

Mr. Choo : Want to buy ar? Can! How much you want to pay me?

Goh : 5 ringgit!

Mr. Choo : Waah... So 'paeng' ar? Can! For the cover only! Want?

Goh : (Laughing... )

Goh : Teacher!

Mr. Choo : What! I tell you what, one more noise from you, I will poke this (showing his hand's marker pen) inside your left nose and come out from your right nose untill your mother cannot recognise you!

Goh : Hahahaha....

The end...

Well, he is my English teacher... Very funny teacher... Hahaha...

The second thing I think about is my Form 4 life... Well, I will be very busy all the time next year, I guess... Must work very hard... The economy nowadays is so bad... Parents work very hard and in return we have to study hard...

The third thing is about my PMR result... I was thinking, if I got good result, wah seh! I will go out and play for one day! My teachers will be proud of me! I will get big big angpows from my family! The most important is, I will get a hug from my mom! My mom never hug me, untill I got 7 As in UPSR... I hope she will hug me again once I got 8 As..

I was thinking, if I got bad result, god... You know what... I really will get nothing... I really worked very hard for it... And I want it so badly... However, this is not something that we can decide or control...

I don't want to think anymore.... Stop! Stop! Stop!

Christmas... I love Christmas..

Yesterday was Christmas... I love Christmas... I always do... But this year I din't celebrate Christmas anywhere.... If I have a chance, I would like to celebrate Christmas in foreign countries... Well, wait for my future husband to bring me to overseas for Christmas... Haha..

I just came back from Kedah on Sunday.... I attend my cousin uncle's wedding... Wow... So nice... He is now live in Australia and work there... He brought some of his friends from Australia to Kedah to attend his wedding... Everyone spoke English... Me too... The wedding was very nice... If I meet my future husband, he must also prepare a perfect wedding like this or else I don't marry him... Hahaha...

Aiya, my mom is calling.... She wants to bring me to Tesco to buy white shoes... Have to go.... Well guys, maybe neaxt year will be more busy than this year... Perhaps I will have less time to blogging... Anyway, keep in touch!!

PMR result is coming out on 24!

This is an article I took it from Guang Ming newspaper...

In the article, it is written that 'PMR 24日放榜，当天可领成绩 — （槟城讯）初中评估考试 （PMR）成绩将在12月24日平安夜前出炉，考生可于当天早上10时前往学校领取成绩，快乐度过圣诞节。各校校长已接获教育局通知，24日前往领取成绩，作好成绩公布准备工作。2008年度考生可于当天到校领取成绩单，考生受促在早上10时或过后到校，发放成绩单时间由校方决定。

In this article, it said that PMR results will be announced on the 24 of December, that is tomorrow... The PMR participents may get their result from school at 10 o'clock in the morning.... I am so nervous... I hope the news is true...

Going back to Kedah...

I will be going back to Kedah tonight after my add maths class... Feeling happy! I will be going back to watch Chinese Opera Shows... It is because one of the God's birthday... Therefore, every year, they will make performances in front of the temple... So cool... I expecting to meet someone who is handsome.. Haha.. Not only that, I will be meeting my cousins... They are nice.. I also can eat laksa... Many things I can do there... Perhaps I will be learning how to cycle... I will be coming back to Klang on Tuesday... Haiya... I will miss my pyhsics class again... I really don't want to miss it... Anyway, it will be ok because Stephanie will be taking homework for me... Thanks lo!

PMR result is coming out soon... Pn. Ong told me most probly will be on 29 of December... I care about my result and I don't care about my result... My feeling is complicated... I want to know my result, but feel like don't want.... Haiya, let it be natural... I hope I did well... If I did well, maybe I will get a new mobile phone... If I did not do it well, I will get nothing... I want the mobile phone so badly because it can help me in studies... Oppps! That's my secret... Haha... It's the best way for me to study through mobile phone...

Lastly, wait for me to come back la!

Feeling bad...

My slippers were too old for me to wear... Therefore, I asked my mom to buy a new pair of slippers for me... I din't go with her... And she went to Tesco with my youngest brother... When she came back, she bought a pair of Bata slippers... Like grandma's slippers... I felt very bad.... I din't talk to her... What a bad daughter I was... In the next morning, my dad brought me to the market to buy nasi lemak for breakfast... He asked me, whose slippers I was wearing... I told him everything including what I felt... He said to me, 'Your mum collects newspaper everyday! Working so hard but earn a little! And yet she bought you a new slippers! Appreciate it!' At that moment, I felt so sorry... My parents are getting older and older... I will be going to university or college soon... Need a lot of money... And yet I am not behaving like a mature girl... I hate myself... Now, I love the slippers more...

Today, I went to tuition in the evening... When I got there, the teacher said no class for today... What a terrible day.... I found out something today... I din't talk to Zhen Yong for quite a long time... He is my friend... I hope he think so too... Actually, in daily life in school, there are a lot of friends arround me... Just that I busy with studies and neglect them... I am bad... Feeling bad...

2009 is coming...

Time passed very fast.. Something like rocket... Well, another month left... Then it will be another new year... 2009 is coming... I think a lot these few days... Thinking about everything and anything... Sort of crazy...

I've been thinking of him... However, I already forget him, I guess.... I've been thinking of religion stuffs... However, it is too complicated for me to think about it... I've been thinking of Brandon... Because without him, I have no one to chat with... I've been thinking of Leong... He changed a lot.. He seems like not a part of the club... Sad... I've been thinking of 'The day the earth stood still'... I want to watch it... I really want to watch it!! T.T I've been thinking of Wee Yan... He had went to Hong Kong without informing me... Bad fellow...

Finally, I've been thinking of 2009... 2009 is coming.. It is so near... I want to be a new me when 2009 comes... Therefore, be strong Qunyuan!!

Message from MJ...

Hey guys.. Mr. Alan from MJ asked us to tell our friends to join his chemistry class at MJ... In my opinion, he is a good teacher, I guess.. Haha... I just knew him for two months.. Perhaps need more time to know more about him... He said, better we join his class during January.. Don't wait till you fail in chemistry and only then you want to go MJ... Well, non of my business.. I just pass his message to all of you.. Hehe.. Good luck!

Merry X'mas...

I wish you a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!! For my blog readers, I would like to wish you guys Merry Christmas and a very Happy New Year!! Happy always!! ^^

G2, the Youth..

Today, I joined the Youth with Joyce and Stephanie... I really love the people there... They were so friendly and kind... The songs also very nice... I love everything there... However, it is so bad because I am not a christian...

Religion, is something that we trust and follow... Every religion is good... Just that there are many religions in the world... Religion is something that we should follow once we were borned... Parents are the one who decide our religion... Although we can change our religion, but it is not good... For me, I am a buddist and taowist... I will go to temple and pray, just like other buddist and taowist... However, I will go to church to join the activities there, try to understand more about other religion... This doesn't mean that I must be a christian after that... Next year, I will be studying Islam's history... This doesn't mean that I must be a Islam after study the history of Islam too....

Well, what I'm trying to say is, be a faithful followers of our own religion... Always be yourself, just like what Joyce tells me everytimes I participate in Youth activities... Thanks a lot, Joyce... See you on the 26th of December... And remember my 15% of your salary!!!

你了解吗？

有时候，很简单的事，我们把它给复杂化；有时候，很艰难的事，我们却可以解决。。这是不是人类的愚蠢所在呢？很奇妙的，我们生存在这世上，也很奇妙的，我们在世上互相竞争，更加奇妙的是，人与人之间的感情。。。

感情，这两个字眼，是很抽象的。。看不到，但感受得到。。。摸不着，但可以培养。。。爱，恨，喜欢，崇拜，欣赏。。这些感觉，你体会过吗？每天把“爱”挂在嘴边的情侣，他们俩的感情可以维持多久？每天把“恨”挂在嘴边的敌人，他们对彼此的恨有多深？喜欢的事物，得到了，有珍惜吗？自己崇拜的人，有没有把他当榜样看待？你会欣赏的东西，别人和你有同感吗？好复杂。。

我们的岁月有限，想做的事，就敢敢去做，但别伤天害理，杀人放火。。。每天都等待着未来，未来是何时何刻？我终于明白，未来是不存在的。。。每天期盼的未来，其实已经到来。。。几年前，你的未来，就是现在；现在，你的未来，就是几年前后。。。未来，是不存在的！把握机会，珍惜现在是最实际的方法。。。

恐惧感。。怕。。怕。。怕。。每天只会念着“我怕”。。怕就不用做吗？怕就不用式吗？怕就不用度过吗？别怕。。怕，不可能会有结果。。。勇敢，才会得到成就。。式着放开，世界是美丽的！

你了解吗？

Crazy night, in Sam's party....

Wednesday, was a day which I will never forget... Before Wednesday, Weeyan asked me to go to JJ on Wednesday because there will be a big sale for the JJ card members.. I wanted to go, but my parents did not allow me to go... So, what to do? Before Wednesday too, Joyce (Seow Fong) called me and asked me to join his cousin brother's (Sam) party... I wanted to go, but my parents said no again...

On Wednesday, in the afternoon, my mum decided to bring me to JJ for the sale... I really hate her... She said no at frist... I bought some clothes... I met Kaili at JJ with her mom too... There was so many people... They were actually killing me by squeezing me with their big buttocks... God...

After that, I had addmaths tuition in ET... My mom fetched me home to take her JJ card and then fetched me to ET... My two brothers were waiting in JJ... My whole family will be in JJ till night, therefore, nobody can fetch me home after my addmaths class.... So, my mom let me to go to Sam's party with Joyce... I really really hate her... She said no at first!!

During addmaths class, Mrs. Tan, my addmaths teacher was really funny... I love her.. After her class, Joyce came to ET and fetched Stephanie and me to her cousin brother's house... She brought Shy Tian too....

Ohhhhhh... my god.... The moment I reached Sam's house, his house was so so so beautiful!! His house looked like the British people's house... The most important thing was, his house had a huge Christmas tree!! Said the truth, I never see a christmas tree in a house before except in the shopping malls... His house was so different compare to mine...

In his house, I met a lot of new friends... Including Sam... I met Sam once at Sunway Pyramid when we went for ice skating... However, I din't recognise him when I reached his house untill Joyce introduced him to me... During the party, everyone was so kind and friendly... I think most of them were Christian except Shy Tian and me... Everyone there spoke English... Eventhough they din't know each other, however they will still hug each other... I really happy to meet friends like them... They were so open minded...

Later, they sang songs together... They called it 'carolling singing'.... After that, everyone went into the TV room... They turned on the radio, increased the volume, and god... They started to dance!! They were mad!! Exspecially Grace, the most sexy and beautiful girl... God.... They were dancing just like in the night club... At the moment, I realised that study is nothing... I am also nothing... People enjoy life with fun, and I enjoy life with books... My life is meaningless... I love them... These people were nice...

At 11 o'clock, Joyce's mom fetched us back... I really appreciate Joyce who invited me to the party... If I din't go to the party, I am still a frog in a small cage...

Other days in Sarawak...

Hmmm... I will be very busy for this coming few weeks... Busy buying new uniforms, busy buying new shoes, busy with my tuition homework, busy with my own notes, busy with the spring cleaning.... Well, basicly, busy with everything I guess... Therefore, I don't actually have time to tell you guys about my trip to Sarawak through my blog... Anyway, I will still tell you what I did there.... On day 2, I went to the Culture Village and I visited the house of Orang Iban, Bidayuh, Penan, Orang Ulu, Melanau, Melayu and Chinese... I watched their culture performance too... Wow, it was cool!! After that, we had our lunch and we visited the 'jungle' with 24 Orang Utans... We just saw 2 Orang Utans there... They were not keep in cage, they were on the trees!! Haha... Amazing!! We went back to the hotel after that because the weather did not cooperate..... Rain again and again everyday...

On day 3, we went to the Fairy Cave and Wind Cave... You know what, the Wind Cave was very dark... I went in there with a torch light... At that moment, I understood how a blind person feels... Next, we went to Fairy Cave.... Ohh god.. It was so dangerous!! I climbed up there... About 18 floors... God... Luckily, I am safe... Or else... Haiyo... Then, we went to a chinese temple built in a Malay village... Imagine that... It was unbelivable!!! Then, we went back to hotel because rained again...

On day 4, we go no where because I cirit- birit non-stop... God... From solid to liquid, and from chocalate colour to black colour, and every hour twice... Imagine it... One of my friend that I met in Perak during the Perpaduan Dan Intergrasi Camp came to find me... He is a Sarawak citizen... Ohhhhhh my.... When I saw him, he smoked... He changed into something like 'samseng'.... He was very kind and gentle when I met him in Perak... But now... Haix... Everyone has the right to change... However, change into a better person will be a better choice... After I met him, I was so worry for Lay Chong... I scared he will mix with the bad bad guys and became samseng... I really worry for him... However, I can't change anything... He is the one who has to face it... I hope it will not happen...

On day 5, I still cirit-birit non-stop.... From back to green colour... I felt so uncomfortable... After that, we went to Kuching airport and got back to Klang... Finally, I want to mention again that I HATE SITTING AEROPLANE!!!

Day 1 in Kuching, Sarawak...

Well, the frist thing I want to mention about my trip to Sarawak is.... I REALLY HATE SITTING AEROPLANE!!!! On Saturday, I woke up at 5.30 in the morning... I was so tired however I managed to force myself to wake up, take a shower and change my clothes... After that, the taxi uncle fetched my whole family and me to the Terminal LCC... I sit Air Asia's aeroplane to Kuching, Sarawak... The moment the aeroplane started to fly, the feeling on the aeroplane is similar to the feeling when I was playing the Vortex in the JJ fun fair.... Oh my.... I really hate to sit aeroplane because it makes my ears very uncomfortable... Finally, I reached Kuching's airport... For your information, Kuching's airport is the second biggest airport in Malaysia... I had no feeling of excited because I felt like vormiting.... Uncle Chuah was our tour guide... He fetched us from the airport and brought us to the nearby foodcourt to have lunch... I ate the Sarawak's laksa... It was very different from Penang's laksa... Then, we went to the City Tower to see Kuching town from the top of the tower... After that, we went to Cat Museum... In Sarawak, I din't actually see any cat here... However, do you know why Kuching is named as 'Kuching'? Long long time ago, James Brooke was the Raja Putih in Sarawak.. During that time, he don't understand Malay language and the people in Sarawak also don't understand English.... One day, James Brooke visited a kampung in Sarawak... He asked an old Malay woman, 'What's the name of this place?' The old woman had no idea what James Brooke said... Again, James Brooke asked the old women, 'Can you tell me the name of this place?' The old woman had no idea and stared at him... Suddenly, a cat passed by the place where the old woman stand... She pointed at the cat and shouted 'kuching! kuching!' James Brooke thought that it was the name of the village and named the place as 'Kuching'.....

How about Sarawak? Why Sarawak is named as 'Sarawak'? Long long time ago, Sarawak was under Brunei... James Brooke came to Sawarak and Pangeran Muda Hashim asked for his help to settle down the problems caused by the people in Sarawak... And then he became the Raja Putih and the Brunei king gave him the whole Sarawak... The Brunei king said 'Beta serah awak tanah ini...' James Brooke misunderstood and thought the place is 'Serah awak = Sarawak'.... That's why, Sarawak exist...

After that, we went to the Sarawak Museum... As I know, Sarawak has 27 races there... In Kuching, there is no MCA, UMNO and even MIC... And there is no Indians here... Sarawak has many Ibans and Chinese... Ibans were very cruel last time... They chop their enemy's head and kept it in their house to show that they are brave... If they do not chop their enemy's head, their enemy will chop theirs.... Wow... Ibans are cruel... However, if Ibans never chop someone's head, he can't marry... For girl, if she don't know how to make clothes, she also can't marry....

In the evening, we went to hotel... We stay in Harbour View Hotel... This hotel is very near to city... I stay in room 522 with my brother... I found out that Kuching, Sarawak has no 8tv.... God.... It was so boring without 8tv....

This is my first day in Sarawak.... Continue tomorrow....

Forget him?

Time is passing very very fast... December is coming... Christmas is coming... And year 2009 is coming... Sometimes, time passes very fast is good... However, I hope that my time don't pass too fast... Time, is love medicine... Time makes me forget him, I think... Perhaps I go to school next year, I will love him again... Who the hell knows?

Before PMR, I thought that PMR is everything... Studies is everything... But after PMR, I don't actually care about the result... Well, I hope I did well.. The result is not important for me, but it is very important for other people, perhaps... The process is the most important for me... Throughout the process, I became more mature... Throughout the process, I understand more about myself... Throughout the process too, I know more about my friends and family....

2009 is coming soon... It will be a new year, and I am still Qunyuan... Just that, I will be a better Qunyuan... Haha... As one of the family members, I always hope that my parents and brothers will love me more... But I never do that for them... As a friend, I hope that my friends will be on my side everytime when I need them... But I never be on their side when they are in trouble... Hmmm... I need to change...

Operation again...

Yesterday, I went to hospital for an operation again... The same place, and the same operation, the eye operation... Something is in my right eye... Have to operate to get it out... God!! The operation was going on while I was awake!! It is so so so painful and disgusting... Everything was blood and yellow colour liquid coming out from my eye... God... It was very painful.. I was screaming like giving birth... This is the second time I went for operation... I hope there is no third time...

I am going to Sunway Pyramid on this coming thursday! Going to the ice rink to skate!! Actually, I am not very good in ice skating.. I went there a few times, but seems that no improvement... I will be screaming in the ice rink... Haha... Well, I will be going there with Stephanie, Wee Yan, Wan Xiang... We will go there by KTM... SShhh... Don't let my mother know about it... She won't let me go once she knows I am going with KTM...

The Mines is having a huge book fair till 23 of November... But this book fair is only suitable for the non-bananas... Hahaha... It is because everything is in Mandarin... This shows that Mandarin is very important to a man.. I bought a lot of books there... Well, the situation there is 'people mountain people sea' (人山人海)... A lot of people there... Guys, visit the book fair if you are free!!!

The trip to KLCC....

I woke up at 5.45 in the morning today... My father fetched me to school at about 6.30... Yesterday, Chong told me to wait at the school foyer at usual time... But this morning, when I reached the school, nobody there... Quite scary... At last, Narrie and her friend came... To accompany the lonely Qunyuan...

After that, everyone started to gather at the foyer, waiting for the buses to arrive.. After the bus arrived, Mr. Nicholas asked us to go into the buses... Mr. Mysterious and his friend went up to one of the bus... I went up to the bus with Chong too... Then, we had no place to sit... Chong then screamed loudly and clearly to ask the Form 4 students to sit on the next bus because the bus is only for Form 3 students... And because of Chong, Mr. Mysterious and his friends got down from the bus and sit on the next bus... Chong, what have you did???

Then, we went to the Pusat Sains Negara... However, it did not open... So, we go to Arkib negara... Well, they did not let us in because we don't have any official letter from the school... Then, we went to the Tugu Negara... It was so damn hot... My skin was burning like barbecue... Mr. Nicholas then asked us whether we want to go to the Bird Park or go to next destination... Shienrun said, "We don't want to go Bird Park, went before already... We also have 'bird'....." Oh my god..... Shienrun... God...

Next, we went to the Planetarium.... It was so interesting!! I never been there before... We went into the 'black hole'... Inside the 'black hole', we are getting shorter to taller... I don't actually know how they did that... Haha... Then, I went into a 'room'.. I don't actually know what the room is... I can't balance myself in the room... And I screamed... Guess what happened.... Well, we have to go out the room by sliding ourself out of the 'hole'.... God... I was wearing pinafore... It's short! How am I going to slide down?? I was screaming like hell when I slide down......

At last, we went to KLCC.... Everyone changed their clothes in KLCC.... Me too... Mr. Mysterious was very cute after he changed into his casual clothes... Haha... What a cute boy... Well, nothing special in KLCC.... I ate lunch with my gang of friends... I did not spent for anything other than my lunch... I had nothing to buy.. Everything was very expensive... However, some of my friends bought a lot of things... They bought shoes, books, and other stuffs...

We went back to school at about 4... We reached school at 6.15... Well, it was a happy trip for me... It was exciting, fun, and interesting! I enjoyed myself... My dear friends, how about you guys?

Really very boring.... Help me!!

Today, I actually suppose to go to school to help the teachers to collect SPBT books... However I was so lazy to go to school... My gang of friends will play games and talk craps after they work... Well, I am not interested in that... That's why I absent... I wake up at 8.45 in the morning... After I ate my breakfast, I locked myself into my study room... Playing piano.. Do my piano theory homework.... Complete my BM tuition homework... Then.... Do nothing, and thinking about some nonsence... Haix... Why can't I stop that? God...

I am going to a trip to KLCC on this coming Wednesday with school trip... Mr. Mysterious is going to... However, I am not feeling excited also... Kind of weird.. I will feel happy and excited everytime meet him... But now.. The feeling is gone.. This proved to me that I am really in love with 'him'... Anyway, I am waiting for the day to come... I want to go KLCC....

Just now in the afternoon, I chat with Kok Leng in the MSN... Well, he asked me a lot of things about tuition... Tuition, really very tired... Nowadays, human beings want to get 'A' in everything and that's why they go for tuition... I am one of them... What about you try to think? Besides tuition, what can you do?

我不配....

Today, I listened to Jay Chou's song -我不配... This song made my scar very painful... It is bleeding.... Well, I had put medicine on it... Hope it will dissapear soon....

这街上太拥挤 太多人有秘密

玻璃上有雾气在被隐藏起过去

你脸上的情绪　在还原那场雨　

这巷弄太过弯曲走不回故事里

这日子不再绿　又斑驳了几句　

剩下搬空回忆的我在大房子里

电影院的座椅　隔遥远的距离　

感情没有对手戏你跟自己下棋

还来不及仔仔细细写下你的关于

描述我如何爱你　你却微笑的离我而去

这感觉　已经不对　我努力在挽回 　

一些些　应该体贴的感觉　我没给 　你嘟嘴　

许的愿望很卑微　在妥协 　是我忽略　你不过要人陪

这感觉　已经不对　我最后才了解 　

一页页　不忍翻阅的情节　你好累 　你默背　

为我掉过几次泪　多憔悴 　而我心碎你受罪　你的美　我不配

Maybe..... 我真的不配......

Louis... Good luck!

Oh god... My PMR just over... And tomorrow will be the starting of SPM... Some of my friends are sitting SPM tomorrow... One of them is Louis from Terengganu.... He is a good friend of mine... In my school, the Chin Leong (terrible Doraemon), In Ru, Teck Kian (sorry if I spell your name wrongly^^) and others friends are sitting SPM too... I can't actually help you guys... Well, what I can do is wish all of you good luck!! SPM is actually a passport that can decide your future.... So, try your best!! Maybe you guys don't actually know that I have a blog... Anyway, be calm when doing the questions... Read the questions properly and do what the questions ask for... Don't panic when you found some questions that you cannot answer... Think of me when you don't know the answer... I am definately sure you will know the answer after you think of me!! Haha...

Well, good luck! Maybe this is the last time I wish you guys... Because you are leaving the school... Perhaps leaving me also.... T.T

Am I so terrible?

Today, I open Aaron's blog and saw what he written on his blog... Oh god! I saw his link list... He wrote me 'NO KEMAHIRAN TO HIDUP DE GOH, CLEVER IN STUDY ALSO NO USE!'... God... Say the truth, Aaron, you really hurt me!!! Well, am I that bad? Ya, sometimes maybe I just lack of common sense, and became very boyish.... But am I so terrible? Maybe I think too much gua.... I think a lot today... I know quite a lot about other people... Now, I want to know what others know about me? Well, guys, tell me who I actually am... I willing to know about it... No matter possitive or negative about me, just tell me.... Maybe it is the time for me to change in to a better person to continue my life journey... I don't actually see myself in my life... I need someone to tell me what I look in my life....

I went to GreenBox with my friends last month.. They asked me to sing, so I sang a few songs... After that, when they went to school, they told me that I had no feelings when I am singing... Well, really no feelings? How to have feelings? Hehe... Another stupid question asked by Goh..... Forget about it... Haix....

I cannot control myself...

Everything because of him.... He makes me can't control myself... Because of him!!! The stupid creature really leave a scar in my heart... The scar is really big and deep... All this must thanks to the stupid creature... He is close with a girl... Well, not his girlfriend, but a close best friend... I think... Forget about it la... However, my scar is pain for every seconds....

I've been thinking... If I threat him like a normal friend, perhaps we will be more close to each other... So, I think be friends is enough between us... Let it be natural... But, I just want to tell him, don't escape from me!! Please... Am I that scary?

They really love me...

"Qunyuan, Congrats to you!! You are now a year older!! Anyway Happy Birthday... We hope tat all your dreams will come true... Remember this... Always be Happy... Apreciate everything you have... Dn't be moody... n... always be yourself!! This is from all your dearest friends. We luv you!! Muakss!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY" This is what my friends written in one of my birthday cards... I realised something when I read it for the second times today... They really love me... Always, and I hope will end forever... They sign on my birthday cards, wish me Happy Birthday... These will be a beautiful memory for me...

Friendships are actually true, and real, and even pure... I have a lot of friends.. Perhaps they hurt me before, or did something bad to me... However, who cares? It is because, they help us, cheer us up most of the time when I am in the dark! They are born to be with me... They really love me.... I felt really sorry... Because I care more about my studies then my friends.... Well, guys, I promise I won't do that again! Really!! I want to be a really good friend... Because all of you are my good friends!! I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!

Form 4... Is really near...

The life after PMR is not what I imagined before PMR... Its the same... For me, PMR seems like din't really exist... I started my tuition everywhere starting from this month... Today, I went for my Chemistry class at MJ... Fu-yoh!! The teacher, Mr. Alan, is so cute... Hahaha... In the first class, the moment I step into his class, he said, 'THIS MUST BE QUN YUAN...'. Haha.. You know what, he is actually the first teacher that pronounce my name clearly and correctly in my first chemistry class in MJ... I am very happy.... In his first class, he taught me something really special... He taught me what is 'LP'... Haha... Don't mistaken, it's not bad words... In hokkien, 'LP' means 'long piak', means that crash the wall... Hahaha... He is so cute and funny.... Seriously to say, I HATE CHEMISTRY!!! I told it to Mr. Alan... He answered me that he will make me LOVE CHEMISTRY at the end of the year... I hope so... Mr. Alan, prove to me that you can change GOH QUN YUAN!! Chemistry, for me is really a very complicated subject... Well, at least 'LOVE' is more complicated than chemisry... I am trying to deal with 'LOVE', and I believe that I can handle chemistry too!! Do you guys support me? Come on, support me like how you guys support OBAMA!! Haha...

My friends.... On the 6th of November...

Yesterday, 6th of November... Many things happened.... Say the truth, I have many good, no, but best friends around me... Yesterday, Wee Yan, Yee Hui, Stephanie and Brandon went to JJ with me to watch 007 - James Bond's movie... Well, actually, when Wee Yan was planning to go to JJ to watch 007 with others a week ago, they called it as a 'ceremony' to celebrate my birthday... However, suprisingly, it ends by watching movie in JJ's cinema... Leong had something to do at HQ, Lay Chong's father did not let him out, Kristine din't inform her mother that she is going to JJ, Zai Kai just dissapear, nobody fetch Wan Xiang to JJ..... Everyone had their own reason for not going to JJ.... I am actually sad... Before this, Wee Yan keep talking about watching movie in JJ stuffs in school, but seems no one pay attention on it... During the last minute, everything gone... They din' go... What a perfect ending.... On my birthday, my father bought a cake for me... Before I blow the candles, I made a wish... I wish all my friends will go to JJ on 6th November to celebrate my birthday... Well, I will never wish anything again... Because it ends nothing...

However, something happened after watching the show... Wee Yan, Stephanie and Yee Hui went to my house and give me a really big suprise... The moment I reached home, they sang birthday song for me by holding a chocalate birthday cake... Thanks guys!! I really very happy... However, inside my happy, I met sad...

Well, its just only your birthday, Qunyuan... You are actually nothing but a human being... What is your right to ask your friends to celebrate birthday with you???? Hahaha...

Happy Birthday... 5th November...

Yeah, I am 15 today... Well, I am not actually happy, in the other hand, I am tired... Really tired... Scorpion is the most poisonous horoscope... And today the scorpio is jealous... The reason is the other scorpio hurts her... What a complicated problem...

I tried many times not to think about him, but it ends nothing... Really nothing... Its tired to love him, tired to think about him, tired to watch him with other girl, tired to see him... Even tired to talk to him... I really tried my best to not to care anything about him, but it seems like I am suffering more and more...

I don't want lost him as my friend, this is not what I want... Well, maybe we just suitable to be friends... I can't control myself in front of him... In front of him, I am nothing... Only nothing can describe me... Only nothing... Nothing... Why must be him? I really can't understand...

I decided something after thinking for a long night... I chose give up, in order to continue... I am now low battery, no energy to love him, no energy to think about him... No more energy... No more... It ends here, where I gave it a full stop....

QUNYUAN, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!

It's a tough experience... But why him?

Can you imagine qunyuan is in love? Hahaha... Well, in love with the wrong person somemore.. He is neither handsome, nor did well in academics... Have no idea why I in love with him... However, it will be a relationship without a perfect ending, I want to stop it.. but how?

He has someone special in his heart, what else can I do? Yeah, love cannot be forced... I understand that... I hate all this stuffs about love, I really hate it, because I have no idea how to deal with it! Now, what I can do is hiding... keep hiding my feelings towards him... I asked one of my friends for his opinion.. He said, I should be brave and tell the guy about my feelings. He also told me that if I din't do that, at last, I am the only one who suffer... Ya, I definately agree with him... But... Haix... Let it be... If he is mine, he will definately be mine; if he is not for me, he will never be mine...